There is an ebb and flow to life. Highs and lows.
Some days we are just so grateful for everything, some days,
not so much.
During times of the lows, it is easy to stay down, to just give in
to the feeling of sadness, loneliness, grief, resentment and even
anger. All those feelings are ok, we can feel them, we can wallow in
them and even find comfort in them.
But, for me, I don’t like those feelings. I like calm and balanced.
Something I strive for. I may be a little boring for some, a little
too low keyed. Or some may think I don’t have enough fire.
(Oh, but I do when necessary!)
With the passing of my Dad a few weeks ago, I felt like doing nothing.
Making things, creating, getting my hands dirty is what I am made of, but
that didn’t interest me…..until I heard my Dad’s voice say “Create or learn something
new everyday.” Which he did every single day of his life.
This is how I am being genuine and true to myself.
Even if it is just creating a small flower arrangement or
a tiny clay tile. Learning a new word in another language,
honing my amateur photography. Something new everyday.
Pottery is instilled in me. It is my favorite art medium.
I love to pound the clay to ready it for throwing. That lets
out so much aggression! Throwing on a wheel is like meditation to me.
Not every piece is perfect. A client called my work, perfectly
imperfect. I will take it. I am not perfect, I am being shaped by
a higher power. I do not strive for perfection, but rather, usefulness
Being in my studio, with all the things I love around me,
is where I love to be. I have lovely paintings created by my Mom and
Dad. Sculptures by friends, lots of treasured gifts and pieces
of nature that I have picked up or family and friends have given
me. Photos of my kids and grandkids. It is messy, unorganized and
just a juxtaposition of stuff. But it is home base.
It is where I go to feel the ebb and flow of life. To get a
grip, to celebrate, to decompress. I am not much on talking
to others about my problems or achievements. (My husband and closest
friends are the exception, they get an ear full!) I know I
can go into my studio, crank up the music, cry, pitch a fit, dance.
I know that whatever I create that day will be a part of my ebb and flow.
You don’t have to be an artist to create. Being a great cook,
designer, gardener is creating. Being a good person, understanding
and listening. Being fair and non judgmental. Having a goal, striving
to be the salt and light. All of this is creating and being useful.
So whatever you ebb and flow is today, go with it. Feel it.
But do something that is useful and beautiful, even if it is just
Until next time, much love,
You are doing all the right things my friend. Sending you love and warmth and blesings
Very nice words. I love my space too. Deep thoughts and being quiet is so good
This is beautiful Cindy and so true. I am so sorry to read about the loss of your Dad this I understand. Sending my hugs and condolences to you and your family.hugs B